anyhow, i was sitting in a darkened room with about 5 or 6 close friends, just sobbing silently to myself and totally enveloped in the song. after about the first verse, i really felt that maynard and i were "in this together"...we were really both experiencing the same thing. i spiraled down, down, down into the song with him. it was cold, black and grey and stormy...completely lonely and desolate. and i was there with him, listening and watching and feeling all his pain right along with him...and similarly, he was seeing my experience, feeling my pain...it was as close to anyone i've ever felt by simply listening to a song. i realized the true weight and the symbolism of the lyrics...i had understood them before, but now they were being literally sewn into the fabric of my being. as the last note ended, i jumped out of my seat with tears flowing...
"OH MY GOD, HE WAS THERE, HE KNEW THE WHOLE FUCKIN THING...MAYNARD IS A GOD...MAYNARD IS GOD...I AM IN LOVE WITH MAYNARD!!!"
my friends, oblivious to my "journey", looked up at me startled. one turned to another and said "now THAT'S a tool fan".
indeed. that is a tool fan.